my wish is to restart the year 2009. sometimes its just minor stuffs but it seems that i cant get to take it easy or get it over. why cant i go rehab without worries? why does it have to happen in the first place?
now i am becoming an unreasonable person, blaming this and that, blame my leg, blame myself, blame the timing, blame it , i have no idea what other factors can i blame already.
its like, my injury is considered light and maybe nothing to the outsiders.
i dun like facebook already. cos it makes me like i am so attention seeker kind of thing and i wont want to accept any help anymore because not like my parent cannot afford it.
sometimes i really cursing someone in my hse die or something then have the insurance claim, and wont have to be so upset over such kind of stuffs anymore. but its like damn bad?maybe i am really that bad.

i think singapore society have this kind of person like me is really trash and useless can. i cant study well and not strong physically or maybe emotionally.
just a small freaking injury made me like this. who's testing me like this?
i feel like getting a air ticket, fly back to thai , to my mum, to stay away.