until uncle teeth says i am scared to perform, i didn even realised at all.
just scared not up to standard... the pressure of wanting to do passes as good as them... etc
lack of too many things...
maybe i just want to come back strong n good, and dun ever kan suay me.

i still thinks my daring-ness is enough to make me have the desire to perform.
i hate the fact that i dun have the exact time line to be fully back.

another month,
another month,
another more month. this time, uncle steve says 1 more month and he can say goodbye to me.
time flies.... its flying faster than i thought